lift the anchor

i go to the well
draw up from its depths a blessd cup of rememberance
and pour its crystaline beauty into my carved cup
so that i may drink deep these replenishing waters
and be healed

i am well
i am wonder-filled
but i am not quite whole.
i feel that because i have touched god within
and i know what free love is, how it feels and that it's not always here
i have called back so much of my scattered soul
from the winds that have spread it far and wide
i have placed it all on a special altar that ebbs and flows into and out of this world
i have begun to sew it back together

and i am still sewing

these are new threads that i bind my being with now
and there are new parts
ancient
quarried from the same spirit land as the self that i have travelled thus far with
but shining differently

i giggle over these crystals like a child
or a crow
i am both

the aeon.

this world is a horrible wonder of beauty
and i am working to re-wire myself so that i can hold all of this dissonance
serve and relish
be angry without being destroyed
be joyous in full wisdom
find my teacher and streamline my education
so that i can become what i am in time for it's application

is every life this strange and wonderful?

i'm here in the world outside again.
you know what i mean. or you don't. that's fine.
i'm in council with the "rest" of creation, serving with the brilliance of my love-heart
and all my tools are to test now
and even this, just barely.
we ain't seen nothin' yet.
i had said, bring it on. i meant it when i said it.
now i say, wait just a moment. the moon is so heavy in me and my heart is learning a new language.
we're quick, but not immediate.
i just want to see the wolves before the wheel turns towards the underworld.
for just a while i want to live with them.
then i can live or die in peace.

so i set down my comforts now
and go to their homes
this human world is a second home for me.
and my first home
is an unknown terrain
whose contours call me in dreams

i am coming.
i am coming.
it may be a minute.
but i am coming.