ceremony within

last night was new moon in taurus.  these times are rich with the beauty of creation, springtime, genesis.  it is the time for dropping in deep to the vision of the world of beauty that we all carry within ourselves and bringing it forth into the world of form.  it is the time of moving beyond the idea, the word, the vision, into the being.  transformation begins in the core - there must be a shift in being for there to be a shift in doing.  form follows essence. 

so last night was a ceremonial night, and the winded hilltop of my wisdom mother's home once again embraced my naked immersion in the glory of creations manifold dance.  we began by the fire, sipping sacred tea while invoking and praying, casting spells and drawing light to the focus of our journeys.  the communion of prayer and consumption drove the medicine through my fasted veins hot and bright, and i lifted from my seat as words melted away in the churning tides of my body.  then began a purging process, energetic and physical, so very, very physical.  sound, movement, passion. pleasure and pain all coursed through me as the intelligence of my allies purified this body vessel in preparation for the communion of wisdom with the mother force.  it was outrageous, so necessary, so wild and ferocious and joyous.  raw experience.

then there was a great settling as a new animal ally landed more fully in my being.  where i had needed to work to make a place for that energy previously, now it has rested in me in it's own comfort, calling me home, where i had been calling for it.  it has made me it's bough and it's midnight, and there is a different feeling in my limbs for the presence of it saturating my veins. this wise energy drove me out to the night, to the arc of the hilltop and the fountain of the sky raining from a single brilliant star overhead in a shower of brilliant light jewels and wind-brushed clouds. 

a stand of juniper trees gathered me into their cave, a grove in which to delve more deeply into the mother.  there i danced wildly into my family, my matrilineage, the wmen in my life with whom i am inextricably connected and with whom i have so struggled to relate.  the beauty of their native nature expressed itself to me and i experienced them as ingdigenous craftswomen, displaced from their homelands and carrying a lineage which is mine to carry beyond them.  i realize that i have not been able to go fully away from them because i have not dove fully into them.  i cannot leave their sides until i learn their arts, until i earn my own heritage.  a deep nativity newly born in me that settles many years of searching, of coming and going.  a certainty of family and place courses through me now that has only sporadically before.

and the earth held me, whispered into me, transformed me into the essence of my being because in this kinesis, i finally rested in what is, beyond and beneath my mind and it's grasping, in Truth.  there is more, of course, as there always is, but that is all for the word.  a wise african grandmother once told me, "you want something to happen?  go make it happen.  you got the power.  you don't need to wait for no one.".  ceremony is our right and it is a need of the spirit.  we hold the native knowledge of the sacred in our cells and all that it waits for is our awakening to its presence.  we don't need anyone to officiate for us, for we are each magi and mystics in our own right.  go to ceremony, be in ritual with yourself.  let yourself be more than the experience of your body and your mind in the third dimension.  be transdimensional - it is your heritage.

bless 

integration

spring is breathing through the arroyos in swells of wind and dust that rest on the burgeoning tips of green life pushing out of the ends of tree limbs and shrubbery bushes. birds laugh and sing the prismatic song of life returning to the earths surface in brilliant lusty gasps, and humans dance the mating dance of spring, seeking to love eachother or to delve so deeply into projects the whole being is bathed in strobing life pulses. in these moments, each breath is an act of god, each movement of the hand a devotion to all that is beautiful in being. in these moments we draw up out of our immersion in the depths of potential with a set of colors and curves specifically ours determined to be birthed into the new receptivity of the world in which our souls are dancing the physical experience. we emerge into the moment with our offering, it's unfinished novelty the best of the beauty of it. we bring our new song to the fire and sing the spirits of our kindred to rapture with our loving.
soon to be mayday, imbolc, the fires of beltane burning in every heart, whether the traditions are known or wondered. as you emerge into spring, as we turn towards the light of summer with all of our hopes and dreams and visions for existence brandished before us as mighty love swords, what dream are you dancing awake? these are not standard moments that we move in now, these are moments full of life and full of meaning. where we are in this moment is where we will make our stand for the creation of the new reality of humanity and life on this planet. if you are in love, are you In Your Love? make your being in love an act of Being in Love. make it a principle instead of a situation. make it an offering instead of a meal. and if you are not in love, how could you be there?
i have learned something about love these last few linear years - the power of love is the power of the universe. it has nothing to do with interpersonal relationships (though in these we delve into the microcosmic diorama of the principle) and everything to do with transcendant truth. in real love there is no value system, because truth doesn't work with value systems. it is, by it's nature, transcendant - it moves beyond the third dimension. love and truth are the same. love and truth are clarity. value systems are for linear life and for the mind. they have a place and a function, but they are a manifestation of a universal principle, not the principle itself. they are out a few rings from the center - follow me?
what i mean by "love is transcendant truth" is this - the frequency of love is pure unto itself and either draws things into resonance with it or trenders them down into wht is that frequency within themselves so that they can grow in that light. it is alchemical. what we experience as interpersonal love with all of our grasping and pushing and fearing and needing is not love, but the fears of the mortal self that arise (about deprivation) once a being has touched the face of god. love is what created the engagment, and that essence is pure. when we move into the intelligence that love is beyond "me" and "you", we move into the actualization of our divine potential in the huam nexperience. we are, in part, here to merge the infinite and the finite through the vessel of the body, the vessel of consciousness. we can do this in transcendant love. when i stand in my center and love without my loving being contingent on creatures or circumstances, then i am true magi, true avatar, and my power is infinite. by being fully In Love, i am a pure emmisary of universal truth. and in this way, i may serve my third dimensional reality with all of the power of the universe moving through me.
so as we move into the crux of the shifting of humanities experience on earth, how is your spirit? are you living in your center? are you In Love?